You know how easy it is to get down on yourself, right? When you wake up and think it’s going to be a good day and you’ve scheduled out exactly how the next 14 hours are going to go? And then NOTHING happens the way you need it to? And then all of a sudden you’re looking right at a mountain of work that you wished never existed? Oh yeah. I know them feels.
But what’s cool about life is that while YOU may beat yourself up about things - opportunities missed, missed deadlines, lack of experience, etc - life does not care. Life and time don’t actually hold you back as much as you do and they’re actually quite forgiving. Now, the IRS and Sallie Mae and the bank are NOT. Believe me, I KNOW about how debilitating those responsibilities can be (I went to Grad School, don’t get it twisted). But Responsibilities don’t care HOW you get from Point A to Point B. You could have sobbed for 3 weeks straight but as long as that bill is paid, that’s all that matters.
So that brings me to the constant struggle of balance. It’s hard to balance your happiness and freedom from self-doubt and self-harm (of all degrees) when Responsibilities loom over you. One of the greatest motivators for a lot of us struggling is trying to gain freedom from those Responsibilities, if you can’t just alleviate them a little bit (SERIOUSLY SALLIE MAE, CAN A GIRL CATCH HER FINANCIAL BREATH?!) But Life and Responsibilities don’t care, so you have to learn how to move on and that’s when you try to develop a better plan for achieving your dream: How can I make more money? How can I make the art I want? How can I stay motivated?
I just want you to not forget what you ARE doing. What you HAVE done. You’re progressing every day. My husband recently said to me “We need a meeting of the Board of Directors of Alyssa Sketch’d” and he was totally correct. Every so often, you have to remind yourself of your improvements from one week ago, a month ago, a quarter ago, a year ago. Whichever amount of time means something to YOU because that can be truly invigorating no matter how much - or how little - you feel like you do day to day. I recently realized this while writing my next Newsletter and my terrible, horrible, no good, very bad, day instantly got better. Now I’m off to class and to, hopefully, make sure I actually follow my evening schedule.
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